<-- 3:12 PM MT -->
I just can't get comfortable today. I turn the heater on, it gets too hot. I turn the AC on, it gets too cold. I turn them both off and it gets too hot. grrr

Someone tell the spirits of halloween to just leave me alone!
<-- 6:40 PM MT -->
Place implies people, things, memories -- history. Space implies absence, emptiness, and, these days, a very particular vision of the future. Now that space is ours, place eludes us. Tomorrow seems to come out of nowhere. The past is another world.

Television covers every corner of the earth. Our food and clothing, on the other hand, come from places most of us will never see, let alone visit or call home. We travel across the world in search of the exotic without noticing what is alien in our own culture. In the movies, we want desperately to speak to creatures from outer space. Yet in our political charters, we refuse to speak to human beings across our borders.

There is no way to turn back the clock.

At the moment, our destination is always an Estimated Time of Arrival (ETA). We are no longer concerned with where we are headed, but rather, when we will get there.

We have installed moving walkways in our airports. We are slowly converting every place into a terminal. Soon, we will always be in transit, our home an electronic suitcase. No wonder we are angered by delays when once we might have cherished them. There's nowhere left to stop.

If there is nowhere to sit down and never a static view to take in, if we have forgotten how to talk to strangers and how to embrace old friends, if being alone means being a failure and being in touch is better than being there, who can stand for a delay? Just "reach" out and "touch" someone.

For place is perspective. Perspective, and thus place, is always transient. We move and our line of sight changes. So too does our understanding of the world.

The world is not one. The village is not global. We are where we are.

The man with binoculars might visually inhabit two distinct sites, but he is still firmly situated in only one. Where he is standing will always determine what he sees. No matter how far our new technologies may cast our gaze, it always returns to its point of origin, our only place in this world.

To know this place is to know ourselves and to be known to others.


<-- 11:54 AM MT -->
I feel like I live my life in circles, living from day to day. I don't feel like I want to be and I don't make friends that are like myself. I always go where I want to go, and they are just more suckers sitting at coffee shops. I guess I made too many mistakes to to change just who I am. Picture yourself looking down on the place that you once told yourself "Things are going to change right now for me." I guess I made too many mistakes in my life to change just who I am. That doesn't bother me as long as I got my friends. I sleep with one eye open as I listen for the sounds of my enemies on the hardened ground. No matter how hard you try, I won't go away. Pictures of the past keep keep crawling back in. I really need someone to share a laugh with but time time has taken the best out of me. I don't really care too much for money, and I don't really want all the glory. I just want to hear you say you're sorry for me. I guess I made too many mistake to change just what I am with or without my friends.

Play the roles away.
<-- 7:54 AM MT -->
Here in Colorado we have a problem. I am not a football fan, but I know who John Elway is. Hell, everyone not locked up in solitaire knows who John Elway is. Well, about 6 years ago he opened up a Jeep dealership here in Denver. It was bought out about a year later and renamed to Pro Jeep. No big deal really. No one thought much about it. Until now...

Just about every damn commercial in the metro Denver area is about John Elway Auto Nation USA. Not surprising since he bought out just about even independent dealership in the metro area. He even bought out some larger chains. There is even one where John Elway appears in the back set of some tubby guy's car and asks him if he can put the guy's name in some book of satisfied customers. The humor in this commercial is less then adequate. Then we have a used dealer by the name of Rocky's Autos. The decided to make a commercial spoof of the john Elway one, and instead added the tubby guy's name to a list of people who "settled for a sticker." And even an old Ford dealer has gotten into the action by saying that John Elway is lying about them. Where will it end? At first it was funny watching all the car dealerships fight it out publicly. And I’m sure a lot of people got really good deals on some cars. But it is old now. So cut the shit already, “It’s about time!”
<-- 9:45 PM MT -->
Some 2.1 million pounds of frankfurters sold under the Sabrett and Western Beef brands were recalled for possible contamination with listeria, a deadly foodborne disease, the U.S. Agriculture Department said Today.
(found on About.com)

Woah there... not only is that a lot of ass, that is a lot of BAD ASS! Glad I don't eat em.
<-- 10:46 PM MT -->
Ok, take a look over on the right of your screen. See that poll? Well, first fill the damn thing out, ok? Geez, pushing a button just isn't that hard. Democracy at work (sort of).

Finished? Good. Here's a cracker to munch on. Now WTF is this about
73 gigabyte harddrives?!? Damn, that's a serious amount of pR0n. I'm sure even BlatZ hisself would be hard pressed to fill that sucker up.
But don't let them thoughts of digital titties distract you from some serious shit that's going down.

Look, people are stupid. They've proved it time and time again. How else do you explain Bob Saget and fucking instructions on a box of toothpicks? So, if general humanity is about as dumb as a steamy pile of dog shit, how the hell did we wind up with such incredible advances in technology? Give up? 'Course ya do!

AlIeNz, baby! Those fuckers were buzzing hicks in Roswell hopped up on Galactic Hash and augered into the ground. Along comes farmer Bill with a pig still firmly attached to his loins and the rest is history.

Are we alone? Naw, we're just riding the Galactic Short Bus...

I Cladius, U suk!


<-- 6:54 PM MT -->
Go year - Old junkies and their pants are falling down. Trying to convince my intellect I can't get that far down. But once the marble's rolling, it's own force will whip it around. Till you're right back underwater, feet dangling off the ground. Fleeting clarity may point this out when the train is downward bound. But only when you pull the cord will it's truth truly resound. Wake up! Burn away the fog. Stop waiting to be crowned. Death is the ending, change is accidently found.

No blood - Glue white face, eyes sinking darker black, dwarfed inside my cave, one look jerked right back, pale green goes around, slowly requests again, answers yes, spirals down, feels good despite the rest.

Wandering sounds go around as the train comes down. Its all pissing on me as I'm homeward bound. Free form streams fill up run dry. Adopt a highway? I'm not that high. I don't doubt my place of others, I'm not sure. Lost with no soul, goal focus impossible. Psychic tunnels remove the choice, decision arrived before the voice.

Open your dead eyes, there's a lot of love in this room tonight.
<-- 11:17 PM MT -->
Everyone should checkout www.dhis.org. They'll setup a domain such as seveng.dhis.org (not my real one), and then you can use a daemon or tray program like WinIP to forward whatever your current IP is. This works great since DNS requests get forwarded, your own DNS server can forward names down the heirarchy (mail.seveng.dhis.org, www.seveng.dhis.org, ftp.seveng.dhis.org, etc, etc, etc) Very cool, and much easier for friends than having to ICQ an IP everytime you have to redial your ISP!


<-- 11:01 PM MT -->
temperature outside my apartment: 50deg F
temperature indisde my apartment: 98deg F
why?
if you know please contact:
yourmom@myhouse.lastnight.edu


<-- 9:17 PM MT -->
Holy crap I just ran into something really messed up. Check out iDomain and see what they are up to. Looks to me like they are buying up all the 2, 3, and 4 letter .com .net and .org domain names they can get their hands on. Remember these are bought for $70 per 2 years from InterNic. They then turn around and sell them for as much as $8,500. Hmm... that is roughly a 12000% profit. Not only is that completly messed up, but it holds those domain names so a starting business who would maybe like it can't afford it. So I urge you to send a nice little peice of hate mail to: idomain@namething.com.
<-- 11:20 PM MT -->
From About.com:


"A federal appeals court ruled Friday that New York City can stop a Ku Klux Klan group from demonstrating if members insist on wearing masks."


Heck yeah. One step closer to getting rid of the sorry ass Klan in this country. The masks only proved that they are scared for anyone to know who they really are. Now we will see just how much they beleive in their "cause." Good show New York. Damn good show.


<-- 10:13 PM MT -->
Damn, it has been a long wait. DOGMA is finally being released. I have waited too long for this movie and the next 2 weeks is going to drag. But it opens November 12th in the US.

Fear that.


<-- 4:28 PM MT -->
I just watched the Blair Witch Project again. I can’t get over the simplicity of the whole thing. A whole movie filmed on HI8 and 16 for $22,000 and they still set records. This just proves that you don’t have to have a big star or an all-star post-production crew to kick some serious ass. Even the premise behind it is killer. Put 3 people out in the woods with some cameras and a storyline, then scare the living shit out of them. Leave them only enough food to get by but still look hungry and worn out. Meanwhile you sit in a Mexican café waiting for dark so you can scare them again.

I don’t really go out for “scary movies” and the like, but this one rocks. The sheer reality of the whole thing is what makes it so good I think. Independent film makers are so much better then plastic mass produced chart busters.
<-- 8:03 PM MT -->
5 minutes ago

It is so odd how much we take for granted. How such trivial things can mean so much if you actually stop and look at them. How many things in just one day do you take for advantage? Can't count that high. How many of those little trivial things could change your life?

4 minutes ago

No. Hell no. Don't think you can just do that. There are laws you know. Laws so you can't do that. Don't tell me you don't care. You have to care somewhere. Even if you don't want to admit to it you have to care. It's just human nature.

3 minutes ago

Time keeps moving. Can't remember how long ago it was. Months, hours, seconds maybe? Time has no meaning when you no longer have a grasp on reality. But then again, does time ever have meaning?

2 mintes ago

Can count them now. You remember don't you? The little trivial things? Can count them now. Up to thousands already. How long have I been counting? I don't know. Time doesn't matter to me anymore.

1 minute ago

FUCKING GET AWAY FROM ME! You think I care what you think? I don't give a shit about your car or your TV. To me that is just stuff. Fucking stuff I don't need. FUCKING GET AWAY FROM ME!!!

BURNOUT
Memories don't hurt like they used to. Last year they cut and burned. It was my fault. I would go back and check on my memories like they were some kind of investment. When I would return to these places, to these people, I became lost inside. I think that people fear the fact all things pass. All of a sudden you find that you should have left the party a long time ago. All the great things that happened come back to make you feel crummy. You have to let go, otherwise you get dragged.

So many ways to burn out
Talk about insomnia. I did not sleep last night. Rather I worked on the layout and design for this site. The Chasm is fairly empty still.

I've been traveling a lot lately(not for fun, that would be too... fun...) and i think it's definitely cathartic. Not to mention mind numbing. Driving through the middle of eastern Colorado and western Kansas has not one positive aspect. So shoot me.

Oh, and welcome to those of you finding this site before it is actually opened again. Now get out you impatient jerks.